It’s hit. The mid-season blues. Only it’s not even nearly mid-season. Although this time there is some rhyme and reason to this feeling. I’m ill, like coughing-so-bad-I-vomit ill. Our most fun guests of the season, so far, left on Sunday and now the Chalet feels super empty and a little bit lonely. Added to by the fact we have no guests this week so the Chalet is actually really quiet and I have no purpose here, apart from being ill and sneaking in a cheeky ski.
Finally, I miss Sydney. Yes, I sound like a broken record. It’s taken nearly six months to finally sink in that I’m not going back and I don’t know when I’ll be going back. One of my best friends invited me to her 21st in Sydney and I had to say no, it’s too far and too expensive. Another one of my friends – we are the same person just 10 years and currently a million miles apart – told me she missed me more than she realised she would. And I feel the same. I feel like I’m missing part of myself, because I so very carelessly left it in Sydney! Now if someone would kindly return that part of myself to me that would be great. But for now I’m trying to concentrate on the positives.
I have so many people who I love and miss all over the world. Now if that’s not a privilege I don’t know what is. I can happily live without so many things and being here is only highlighting how many things I don’t need. I am the girl who’s happiest moments are road tripping with my tent, sat round campfires, eating mash-ups of food with people I love. Living freely with salty, sandy bodies whilst we rose and fell with the sun. And I can emulate that here. I have my skis, I have a lift pass and when I’ve got rid of this horrid virus – I will have the ability to enjoy them to their full potential. Having said that I’ve still skied at least a little bit every day, bar 2! Learning to off-piste has to have be one of my highlights so far. Pierre, our instructor, comes out with some absolute gems and is also a complete nutter who attaches his air bag pulley and then tells us not to worry!
So I’m going to try and focus on the positives and ignore the negatives, no one wants to feel like a negative Nancy! And let’s just hope these blues disappear when we get our next guests in!