Here’s to Cardiff starting to feel like home. CHEERS *clinks champagne flutes* Its been nearly a month since I moved here. I’ve finally started to properly explore the area. And I can get places without using google maps so that’s a triumph in itself!
So this may come off as a rant and very ungrateful of the opportunities I have been presented with, but there’s a few home truths I think should be shared. These “truths” are sometimes overlooked, with only photos telling the story. I feel qualified to dis-spell them having road tripped for nearly 3 months in the past year.
San Francisco. My first ever American city. I loved it although it wasn’t without its flaws.
I fell for a boy.
And he fell for me.
But I have to leave.
And he has to stay.
Life’s an adventure and you never know what’s coming round the next bend. This time quite literally. Lachie was driving us to Wategoes Beach in Byron and managed to reverse into a tree. Big oops. Stella’s tail light cover is now smashed and needs replacing. All the bulbs are still in fine working order but you can’t tell what each light is referencing.
“Some days are harder than others. Some days my body feels heavy, my eyes feel sad, my brain feels fuzzy and there’s an aching in my chest that doesn’t know what it wants to do. On these days everything is difficult. Leaving the house is hard. Sleeping is hard. Just being alive is hard.
I’m having one of those days. I did manage to surf this morning which has helped a bit. I don’t feel normal. I feel empty. I know I should go to yoga this afternoon, it will help clear my head and soothe my soul. But getting there is hard.
These days come and go, but when they come, they come with vengeance. They hit hard and they make me feel terrible. On these days I’m particularly self-critical, thoroughly mean to myself and my overthinking goes into overdrive. The only thing to do is wait them out. Find distractions – which is easier said than done, when leaving the house feels like an epic challenge.”
The holiday season continues and as does the traditional eating and drinking that so often goes hand in hand with the delights of Christmas. I feel like I quite literally have not stopped since I finished working. So I’ll give you a highlights reel…